Well, shit...

Current song playing: Celtic Nabazcast
Current mood: down-ish

Ho hum. Unemployed. Again.
*sigh*

Jess went back to Philly today, too, so the true aloneness is beginning. Despite my best efforts over the past 24 hours, I can't think of anything happy.

Just gotta keep on keepin' on.

I Can Has a Dobby Hat!

Current song in my head: Mamma Mia-- ABBA!!
Current mood: boredy bored bored bored!

It's been a while...
Not much to report. I've been watching TONS of movies. And working. And not much else.
I saw Mamma Mia with Raphael the other day. It was quite cute and fabulous-- giving me my fix of over-the-top musicals. :-D In the past month I got Stardust and Penelope from Netflix, and, alas! I am totally obsessed with both. Check them out if you haven't yet, as they are both super fab and cute and wonderful.
I am also super psyched because I should getting the fourth and last installment of the Twilight series, Breaking Dawn, at some point this week. Should be good for a full, intense night of voracious reading and vampire lust!
Yesterday I looked up lots of knitting stuff that I want to be able to do eventually. Having absolutely nothing else to do (save finish the scarf I've been working on for ages) I made myself a Dobby Hat (http://leftinstitches.blogspot.com/2005/12/dobby-hat.html) last night, using some of the three tons of yarn Raphael gave me. Behold!
I think it's super cute. Jess disagrees. Story of my life? Anyway, my current plan for Christmas this year is to knit all of my gifts. If I start now, I might actually be able to do it, though I doubt most people are going to want anything I produce... Who doesn't already have millions of scarves, hats and sweaters? Whatevs. I can't wait to try socks. (can't wait = terrified) :-P
I've also been helping Raphael move stuff. Gotta prove that I'm just as strong and tough as the boys. Grr?! Today I helped lift heavy boxes in a dress. Just because I can! Tee hee? He leaves Wednesday and it shall be very strange without him. Yet another person on the list of people who moved away (it's getting to be a depressingly long list (because it's everyone!(except, of course, me.))) At least, I am becoming more and more comfortable in my solitariosity. And now I have lots of knitting to keep me busy. At least until I get bored with it?
And how's this for random? Tonight I have to go to work to let some paranormal investigators into the building... Never thought that would be part of my job description.
Also, I have finally mailed my last check. I am, for realsies, FREE. And I'm sure I shan't be hearing from him anymore, pretending to care how I'm doing so he can nag me about paying him. Nope nope.
So now it's gonna be SAVE SAVE SAVE for Boston so I can get the heck outta here. The other day at work I made a list of all of my goals for when I'm finally on my own. It's gonna be sa-weet and I can't fucking wait!! Anybody got any good get rich quick schemes? :-P

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Current Song in head: Men in Black (?!?)
Current mood: rumbly in my tumbly?

So... what's up? Nothing much going on here.
Completed my FAFSA application, which was, of course, a huge joke. Need to contact the financial aid dept. of NESOP and start begging. Should be good times!
Got to see Mandy on Monday! A bunch of us went to El Seranos for drinks and apps and then we went to Tara's house to visit with her parents for a bit. Went to BJ's with Della and got a cake, the idea being to consume the whole thing in one go. Then Mandy and I went to her house and talked/nibbled on cake until about 8am. Old school! It was super good times seeing her again; as always!
Also on Monday, I went to the gym (yay me!) and then to see Wall*E (hells yeah!). I sniffled the whole way through!
Other than that? Work has been slow. Painfully so, in fact. I've been getting a good bit of knitting done. I'm working on this scarf, which sounds loser and cliche, but it's actually cabled and tied and all kinds of crazy stuff, so it's pretty time consuming. I like to tell myself that I can use it this winter in Boston. I'm really hoping that that will be true. *crosses fingers* I've been looking through jobs on craigslist and have applied for a bunch of office and serving jobs. Sadly, I'm thinking serving is gonna be the way to go, especially if I'm going back to school. I've seen some with benefits and everything, too, so that would be nice. I do misses me some health insurance! And that would make it much easier to move up there.
So...yeah...
Laters.

ps, Came across this on imdb:
"If it were up to me, how would the characters' relationships conclude in Serenity 2? Okay. Hypothetically speaking only. River and Zoe really hit it off, fall in love, and decide to form their own renegade girls-who-kick-ass space team and leave us in the dust; Mal realizes he's more destroyed over Wash's death than he ever thought and spends the rest of his days wearing Hawaiian shirts and drinking booze out of the engine; Simon and Kaylee have a set of genius triplets and turn the ship into a cocker spaniel search-and-rescue with "crazy Grandpa Mal" still at the helm cradling toy dinosaurs; and Inara finally realizes the potential in Jayne as a male companion, loans him a toga, and takes him back to the training house where they become King and Companion Queen...you know you want that sequel! [writing on her blog]" - Jewel Staite
hee!

Hells yeah!!

Current song in head: I Shot the Sheriff-- Bob Marley
Current mood: felicitous!

I got in!! :-D

Current song in my head: Ziggy Stardust-- David Bowie
Current mood: fine?

Hm... Not much has been going on lately?
Today I spent an hour on the phone with the admissions director of NESOP. He was very nice (he reminded me of a slower-spoken Brendan) and helpful. The basic gist is that it sounds really cool but I'm going to need a lot of money. Not nearly as much as for Lehigh or pretty much any other school, but still. The good news is, if FAFSA won't give me anything because I don't qualify as an independent according them (even though I am?) I won't have to reapply if I want to push back my start until Oct '09 (instead Feb '09). So yeah... They have an open house on August 10th and I guess I'm gonna try to go.
What else?
Yesterday I walked to a B&B near here (half a mile? a mile?) and took some pics of their goats and llama.
Hee!
I reapplied for a passport last week. In case you missed out on that one, it turns out the fire-safe lock box I had it in in my room at school was not leak proof. THAT was a fun (and costly) discovery. Anyway, I was told the current processing period is only four weeks, so I guess that's nice. Not that I'm going anywhere anytime soon...
Which brings me to Boston. My boss told me that his partner's mom lives in Jamaica Plain and she just renovated her place or something and is considering renting a room. 'Twould be sweet, I guess. I really REALLY want to live completely on my own, but that's probably gonna take a while. So if anyone knows of anywhere cheap to live or has any job leads for the Boston area, lemme know!
Also, I started an outline for the business plan for my diner. Only took me a year! If anyone knows anything about writing a business plan and anything else business related, some help would be muchly appreciated!
Oh! And I finally finished the desk that I was refinishing and got it up into my room!! It looks pretty awesome! I should post a pic...
I guess that's it? A bit of depressingness: within a month any friends I have within driving distance will have moved away. :-( All the more reason for me to leave as well?!?
Also, R.I.P. George Carlin. :-( *insert string of profanities here!*

peace.

Good Deed

Current song in head: Feelin' Good-- Michael Buble
Current mood: bored-ish

My mom and I were driving back from my doctors appt. this evening when we saw one of the neighborhood boys lying under his bike and crying. When I asked him if he was ok, he just wailed so I immediately jumped out and tried to lift his bike off. He yelled and I realized he was stuck to it. His shoe lace had gotten seriously wrapped around the chain and pedal, locking his foot to it. We couldn't get it unknotted and it was too tight to slide his foot out... Luckily two neighbor guys saw us struggling and ran over with some pruning shears to cut him loose. He checked his ankle and foot and he was ok, just a little bruised. We drove him up the street to his house and walked his bike back for him and we all lived happily ever after.
The End.

ps, Bike chain grease is refusing to wash off of my arm.

Vision Statement

Current song in my head: Breaking Up-- Rilo Kiley
Current Mood: meh...

Business has been slow this week, so last night Raphael gave me a free coaching session (something he charges around $150 per hour for!). He often discusses his ideas and beliefs with me and he was telling me last night about a meeting he had with a potential business partner. This man is into astrology, spirituality and psychology, and massage therapy. He told Raphael that he believes that the past and the future don't exist, only the present is real. It's true if you think about it. The past is done and gone and doesn't really exist anymore; it's just memory. The future is just possibility, right? Or destiny, maybe, if you prefer. This man also believes that just by saying something, it comes true, because you've thought it, and put it out there. Raphael was enthralled by all of this, because it's basically what he believes, too, just put a little differently. He's very much into the Law of Attraction (positive energy and attitude attracts positive things, same with negative) and manifestation.
So, keeping all of this in mind...
He had me rate eight areas of my life and then my homework was to write out what each area would look like in it's ideal. I did it (see below) and then this morning he went over it with me and was very pleased. Now that I have written everything out, I'm supposed to put it away and forget about it. I've thought about it, put it out into the universe, and now I wait to receive. He says it's like a restaurant. You go and decide what you want. You give your order to the server and then you sit back and trust them to bring you what you asked for. I really liked doing this because it was nice to sit down and think long and hard about what I want in each aspect of my life and write it down.
And so, without further ado, my vision statement (keep in mind, it's written in the present because the future doesn't really exist):
Friends and Family
*My parents trust me to live my life and make adult decisions. We have a loving relationship with mutual respect.
*Help and support are there when I need it. I always return the favor.
*I stay in contact with friends, regardless of how far away/busy we are.
*I am fine spending time by myself, but I also make new friends.
*These is always someone to talk to/listen. I am always there to listen and offer comfort/advice/dessert.
Career
*I make a living as a photographer/artist. I enjoy it immensely--I am always eager to work and create. My inspiration and creativity always flourish! I have willing subjects and plentiful supplies.
*I am opening my diner. It is everything I hoped and dreamed and nerds everywhere adore it-- it shall be the Geek Mecca! Everything runs smoothly and business is steady.
*I have a samll farm with goats and llamas and a few chickens. I am totally self-sufficient, making and growing everything I need.
Personal Development
*I continue to grow and learn. I am always positive and manifest the best destiny I can.
*I am a beautiful person (inside and out) who does beautiful things.
*I take action!
*I have more patience when working towards my goals.
*I live in the NOW.
Physical Environment
*I have a clean and organized space.
*I am always able to feel settled and at-home. (There is more to home than material objects)
*I always feel welcome, comfortable and safe.
Health and Fitness
*I weigh at least 120 lbs
*I stay in shape, stay active (walk, bike, lift, dance, bowl, throw, etc.) and get plenty of fresh air.
*I am more conscious of how/what I eat. More: organic, free range, fresh/local, homegrown, etc. Less: HFCS, chemicals and preservatives, GMO's.
*Meds are unnecessary.
Fun and Recreation
*I am learning to crochet.
*There are always swings! And libraries! And crafty projects!
*I get out frequently.
*I continue to express myself artistically.
*I sing.
*I write a book/screen play.
Finances
*I am financially responsible and independent. I buy what I need and show restraint with what I want. I make all payments on time, easily, with plenty left over.
*I am saving for retirement, kids and college.
*I earn a comfortable living and am able to donate generous amounts to charities.
Romance
*I am fine on my own. Being with someone is ok, too.
Ideal partner:
*Tall, dark...handsome is nice, but optional. Accents are always welcome!!
*Musical. Likes to dance. (Playing guitar and singing on key would be nice)
*Open, shares, a willing listener. Patient, understanding, generous, kind, empathetic, smart.
*Sense of humor, but takes me seriously.
*Pacifist. Environmentally friendly/aware.
*Non-smoking. Healthy.
*Motivated, contributes, earns a comfortable living.
*Good with kids and animals; fine with adoption.
*Likes movies, traveling, spontaneity, cuddling.
*Embraces the inner child, but is mature.
*Celebrates with me (b-days, holidays, anniversaries, etc.).
*Love and support through everything.
*Mutual respect.
*Wants to spend time with me and go do things.


So there you have it. I know it's kinda cheesy, but it feels really nice to see that I do actually know what I want.

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